I’ve been going through a really bad depressive episode and my cocktail of medications is not working properly right now. That’s my excuse for not posting anything in quite a while. It’s been so bad that I’ve had to be off work. I really want to get back to work. I’m getting pretty tired of not having anything to do except lay around and wait to see if the newest cocktail of meds is going to work. Luckily my family has been very supportive through this whole mess, and that has helped a lot. I don’t get to see my doctor again until Tuesday, when we have to decide if the current cocktail is working or not, ( so far I’m saying no to that one ) and if necessary we have to decide what to try next. I’m going to push for the off-label use of Mirapex as an addition to what I’m already taking, as well as backing the Abilify back down to where it was at 10mg/day. ( Don’t worry if you have no idea what I’m talking about, this is mostly for me to be able to refer back to later if I need to. )
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Current Events
Mar 11
I think I touched a nerve…
Jan 18
You may have noticed I posted a few tips and tricks for the Farmville game on Facebook. Let me just say, I don’t plan on stopping that. As I learn new things that I think can help other people I’m going to post them. With that said let me explain the reason for this post. I’m starting to get hits on the Farmville posts from search engines and evidently this is pissing off the people that create “junk” sites that have a few tips and then try to sell you something to help you with the game. They have started leaving threatening comments ( with a link to their site of course ) claiming that I copied everything directly from their site. If you’ve ever read my site you should be able to easily tell that my tips posts were written off the top of my head, with my own personal style. ( or lack thereof ) I say let them come after me if they want. 
If you stuck around for the end of this post, you get a free tip for Farmville. You may think this is counter-intuitive… Master a crop completely ( all three stars ), but DON’T stop growing it. Growing a crop you have the mastery sign for yields bonus XP when you harvest it. It may be boring, but it works.
Anhedonia
Jan 17
The reason I didn’t have much fun while I was in Cleveland is because I have severe depression which causes anhedonia ( the inability to enjoy things that should be enjoyable ), anxiety ( the closing of the Cleveland airport on Sunday really helped with that ), a complete lack of energy, and a few other “fun” problems. Even before I booked the trip I knew that my balance of meds was slipping. For some reason I thought that trekking out there and seeing my friends would somehow break how I was feeling and let me have some fun. Unfortunately it didn’t quite work out that way. Right after I got back, I got an appointment with my brain doc. He upped the dose of my Cymbalta, and also my Ritalin. Soooo, now I’m enjoying the side effects of Cymbalta without any of the benefits yet. The early morning nausea is fun and the day long headaches just can’t be beat. I think that’s enough self-indulgent whining from me for right now…
Just my luck
Jan 10
Exactly as I predicted, I decided to fly to Cleveland ( where it just so happens I still am ) for the weekend to take pictures of the guys rocking RaysMTB. All the spots in the cars were full and I knew if I booked the plane tickets, that someone would drop out leaving a spot for me. And yes it happened. To top that off, when I went to check out of the hotel this morning I found out that the power to the Cleveland airport was totally out. Meaning that I didn’t know how I was getting home. For a while I thought I would have to try and cram in with the guys that had an extra spot. It turns out they had to take some extra stuff home so there wasn’t really space for me. ( I didn’t want to be crammed in a car for 6 hours anyway. ) As far as I know now, the power is back on at the airport so I should be able to fly home at the expected time. We’ll see how that turns out. For the moment I’m relaxing in the hotel’s business center playing on my laptop. I’m going to head out for the airport pretty soon since it will probably be a madhouse with the power outage and all. Wish me luck getting back to Chi-town. TT
